Talking is such a simple thing, and I still have trouble with communicating in spoken word to many people I know quite well. How does that happen? Why don't we all pick up that skill quickly, after all, I’ve definitely had 10,000 hours of practice speaking casually.
I don’t feel like writing.
This has become an open journal, I suppose that’s what happens when you ask yourself to write something, anything, daily. It just doesn’t come out fully formed on it’s own. If I were to make each day a topic, it might be easier to write more interesting things. As of right now, I feel like this doesn’t hold any value other than forcing me to get some thoughts out of my head. So some value, only to me.
How do you roll back entrenched enemies? Someone has to win. I’d love it to be another way, but it just seems to be human nature to dig in on disagreements with a history.
In the outlying chance, two opposing forces meet to chat unexpectedly and candidly, often negative feelings are assuaged. If only chance could bring enemies together more often.
The skepticism will remain if the rest of the sides aren’t trusting of the communicating parties though.
I don’t know why I wrote this, it’s just where my head went tonight.
Ultimately, you are responsible for everything that happens to you. You aren’t the cause of everything that happens to you, but you are responsible for it. Good and bad. If you don’t anticipate something, and it causes a problem, you are responsible for fixing it, or not. If you have something great happen to you, ultimately you are responsible for how you respond to it. It’s a fucking challenge, and it feels unfair sometimes, and other times it feels like you engineered it (when you may not have). I’m not the first person to write this, I’m only regurgitating what others have written and I’ve read. It feels so serious to say, but it is so true.
Like this series of random musings, I think sometimes it’s great to just be surprised by what’s next. As long as that surprise isn’t too far from what you might have thought (or too negative), generally, you get a little hit of discovery dopamine. I think it’s what makes travel fun, great music amazing, why a sudden comeback is exciting for a neutral fan. It’s the sprig of chaos that leads to us searching for novelty. Novelty can’t exist on its own, the chaos of experiences, of neurons, of conditions, creates novelty. Here’s to a dash of chaos to keep things fun and interesting.